my faithful 'obedience'

i'm trapped in a system of rampant discrepancies, in more ways than one.

i cant seem to be able to study cos theres just too much on my mind and i feel so bogged down by certain things.

i once had a birthday card that signed off 'follow your heart, cos thats where you find your dreams.' and that was years back, but somehow it appeared in my head today. then again quite recently someone(ok, one is a massive understatment) told me that 'emotions cant be trusted cos it aint a concrete thing'. it amazes me how one can be so much a replica of a system, and remain so simplified in their thinking.

and it is ironic how all of us choose to seek certain aspects of the system, and yet bitch about the rest of it. (exactly what im doing now ) but i guess at least you choose what you want. i dont want to follow blindly and embrace it totally when i know there are inadequacies and loopholes in it. i dont need to be branded obedient, i rather do smart selection.

scream your lungs out. cos no one will hear you.